Yesterday I heard a young Jewish boy in a store saying “Abba” frequently. My ears were primed because of how I pray to Father God using that very word which means Father.
For me using “Abba” creates a deeper intimacy between God and I. Hearing this young boy was honestly so reassuring. I felt like God was telling me He hears me, truly hears me whenever I communicate with Him.
Saturday night was a great night just praying to Abba and hearing from His Word. To be honest, I didn’t hear much but I woke up the next morning feeling refreshed and rejuvenated. You see, before Saturday I regret to admit…I was consistently on edge. Little things would set me off. I even exploded on some unsuspecting car salesman that I didn’t even know. After doing that I knew something was out of line spiritually. I ended up reaching out to my friend through text (I will refer to her as Prayer Warrior-because that’s exactly what I believe she is). Prayer Warrior pointed me to spending time with the Lord. Even though I ended up staying up til almost 1:30am…it was SO WORTH IT.
The peace that surpasses all understanding that I felt made it all worth it. I had been complaining on and off to God about feeling lonely during the week beforehand. I complained about not having any friends and just feeling so isolated. Well after I filled that void with time spent with the Lord…He blessed me. He didn’t beforehand because I was trying desperately to fill voids without Him. Putting Him first opened the door for Him to meet my other needs.
At church the next morning, I was immensely blessed. Did the enemy attack me frequently though? OF COURSE!!! The devil wanted me to miss all of what God was doing and believe lies like, “You are all alone”, “No one wants you to sit with them”, “You will always be by yourself”, “God doesn’t truly care about you”, “You’re invisible”, “You’re not good enough to hang with anyone here”, “They don’t care about you”…and those lies played in my mind on and off the entire time BUT!!!
Abba God reached out to me through a couple girls around my age. I’ll refer to them as Childlike Faith and Honesty. If it wasn’t for Honesty I would have never found my church and I also honestly probably would not still be alive today. Her honesty is what really woke me up to get help when I was truly struggling.
Childlike Faith has always had this light about her. Lately, I have seen so much joy radiate from her that can only be explained by Abba. The kind of joy that just gets you excited about the Lord!
We all need Honesty in our lives for without truth, we are only fooling ourselves. She complimented my Zox wristband that said “Never Settle” on it and it’s such a great reminder. I often get too comfortable where God doesn’t want me to stay and that really needs to change. I haven’t truly let go of an ex boyfriend…but that needs to change. I need to fill that with Abba, then He will meet my need of a future husband…but only after I fill that void with God.
Childlike Faith reached out to me through acknowledging me, hugging me, and even going out of her way when I sat somewhere off in a corner to speak with me. I felt this eagerness from her just wanting to follow the Lord wherever He may lead her. The kind of eagerness you get when you first believe and allow God to lead your life. I need to get back to that place where God truly is my first love fulfilling every void in my life.
I just thank God so much for these two girls that really broke the lies of the enemy that day and they were not even aware of that war raging on.
I’m so thankful for Prayer Warrior, because if I had not spent time with Abba Saturday night I may have missed God speaking to me through the actions of these girls.
Most importantly though…Thank You, Abba. May Your perfect will be done in each of our lives. May we follow where You lead us. May we recognize that You fill every void in our lives. May we press into the victory we have through You. Lead us, God. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Brothers and sisters, please be praying for me that I keep setting time aside for the Lord. It’s that intentional time with Abba that really fills my heart and helps me to live in a much more peaceful manner. Pray I press into the Lord whenever I start feeling irritable. I don’t want to blow up on random people…it’s the last thing I’d ever want! Forgive me if I have done just that to you.
Love you all!! If I can be praying for you about anything, please don’t hesitate to ask.