In this blog I’m about to deconstruct the phrase that everyone these days throws around, “I was born this way!” In today’s world, our reason for having certain identities, sexuality’s, stutters, disorders, etc is that we were simply born that way. You cannot judge me because I didn’t CHOOSE to be born this way!
You’re right. You didn’t choose.
However, what if I were to tell you that you can choose to chip away things you were born with that truly are NOT you? What if I told you we are here to figure out who the REAL us is underneath what we were originally born as?
It’s like a caterpillar that eventually becomes a butterfly…nothing like how he was born.
Are you still following me with where I am going?
Let me take you on a journey.
A journey of who I was born as VS. who I am becoming.
I was born into sin. From a very young age I knew I was different. I’ve been attracted to girls for as long as I can remember. Instead of thinking I had any sort of choice in the matter, I began to fight against myself in college. Self-harm was frequent and suicide was often on my mind. I was born with a one way ticket to hell.
But Jesus. This King of kings DIED for me to get me out of hell!
“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”~2 Corinthians 5:17
Through Christ, I am able to chip away the sins I was born into from my life. I have the choice to allow God to help me to become completely new from the inside out.
There are programs out there to completely “get the gay out,” but honestly I don’t believe these are totally of God. You have to balance MERCY and TRUTH for God to be in the picture.
With just truth you get deadly consequences, but with just mercy there is no lasting change.
There has to be a balance.
I’m telling you now that homosexuality is an evil spirit that has DECEIVED so many of us and so many are getting sucked into it’s evil agenda. This spirit didn’t full force deceive me and pull me into its agenda personally until AFTER I felt the Holy Spirit calling me to pray for my future husband. What does that tell you?
I may be currently single, but whoever my future husband is missed a lot of prayer from me because I was convinced that I was gay and that I had no choice otherwise. So many prayers for him unspoken and for that I am deeply grieved and sorry to whoever you are.
However, there is hope:
“Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the sons of God: therefore the world knoweth us not, because it knew him not.”~1 John 3:1
I have called upon the name of Christ. I know He has died for me and you upon the cross and has risen again! Jesus is my Savior and He has also died for you so that we can all be sons and daughters of God. We no longer have to be who we were. Through Jesus Christ ALL things are possible. We can become completely new: the real us beneath all the sin.
I may have been born gay and I may still have moments where I feel attracted to another woman but through Christ I am becoming new.
Future husband, I pray that the LORD has protected you even while I strayed to follow the wolf in sheeps clothing. I pray you are running after God.
This evil spirit of homosexuality is well disguised, but I’m telling you, reader, that it’s not of God. Show mercy to your brothers and sisters that have fallen for the lies, but please also tell them the truth.
“And if Christ be in you, the body is dead because of sin; but the Spirit is life because of righteousness.
But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you.
Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh.
For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live.~Romans 8:10-13