It has been forever since I last typed up a blog, but the Lord isn’t letting me rest until I get this one out! God is so good y’all!
When I first turned to the Lord in 2008, I had this dream of a rainbow over a vast sea where I couldn’t see land anywhere in sight. The word forgiveness was clear in my mind upon waking up. God has used this very dream to speak to me on multiple occasions–bringing it more and more into full light of His vast love…and grace that is unending. His grace truly is more vast than the entire sea…greater than all of our sins combined.
Reading the verse above made everything so crystal clear for me.
Why do I keep visiting my former life…my sinful nature? God has already cast my old self–all of my sins–into the depths of the sea!!! He has for you too if you have believed in the name of Jesus Christ!
So why do I keep struggling with my old self so hardcore?
Forgiveness… God has completely forgiven me. And yet…I still wrestle with extending that same forgiveness towards myself. An old way of thinking pops up into my mind and suddenly it’s like…
“Here you go again…”
“I cannot believe you’re even going there. You were literally just reading God’s Word!”
“I cannot believe you feel that way! What is the matter with you?!”
“Why are you not crying right now? You’re so calloused and insensitive.”
It all begins in our mind.
Renewing our mind is a major key to victory.
To imagine extending love and forgiveness towards myself is much more difficult than actually doing just that towards others for me. Then I’m reminded of that saying, “Forgive and forget.”
I will never forget completely the mistakes and bad choices I’ve made, but I can choose to rest in the fact that God has already tossed them into the depths of the sea. It’s time I stop fishing them out and instead yielding to God’s grace. Through His help I’ll be able to extend that forgiveness towards myself and leave that sinful nature in the sea.
Through this imagery I’m also reminded of not only my baptism but my brothers and sisters in Christ who were baptized today.
I am born again through Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit that now lives within me. Instead of fishing for that old self… it’s time I start being a fisher of men to bring them into an encounter with Jesus! His grace is so vast, brothers and sisters! I cannot even begin to grasp how wide and deep His love is for you and I.
My prayer is that we will boldly run into His arms that are wide open for you and I.